Doubts.

Well, today has kind of not been all that amazing.
These past couple of weeks, I've been learning to put my trust in the Lord, and trying to put that trust, ONLY in the Lord. To depend on Him completely.
So today I'm sitting in world history, and we start to take notes on Buddhism, which ended up taking the whole class period. We started the notes, and I didn't think much of it. I mean I know I'm a Christian, and I thought I was pretty rooted in the fact that I know that, like Jesus says, He is the only way to the Father.
Oh, hello there, DOUBTS.
I'm sitting in class and all the sudden I'm like..
Well, how do I know that Christianity is the RIGHT religion? I mean, so many people out there believe that their religion is the RIGHT one.
In fact, how do I know I really believe ANY of this?

And that's about where I started freaking out.
My faith is just recently something I'm starting to become SO passionate about, which is such a cool thing to see. I did go through a really hard time this summer when God didn't allow passion to fuel my walk-it was a walk I had to follow out of obedience..And I feel like in a whole different way, that's what God is wanting me to do now.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding..." -Proverbs 3:5
You guys probably know the rest. But really. God is obviously REAL, and obviously HERE, so who am I to sit here and question it? God has me in this season (though I"m praying it'll be short!) for a reason. I think it's good to question my faith to a certain extent. This doubt of whatever sort has really motivated me to dive deeper into the word, and figure out why I believe this as opposed to other religions. God really opened my eyes to the fact today that I grew up in a Christian home-I was brought up into it. Yes, it was my decision to follow Christ, but my parents were the ones that had me go to Sunday school when I was little. I think right now the Lord is wanting me to make my faith my own, or more of my own. It's so hard, because I don't want this doubt here. But it's here, and God is gonna do something in it for His glory. Isn't that cool? He can take my doubt and turn it into something awesome...
Man, God is pushing me. It's crazy.
Look at Peter.
Okay, so when I get to heaven after meeting Jesus...I really want to sit down and talk to Peter...He kind of fascinates me a little bit....(random little bit of information)
But the disciples are out on a boat one day, and they see someone who at first they think is a ghost walking on water...So they kind of freak out, until they realize it's Jesus. Even then they're still pretty scared, I'm guessing. So Peter, being..peter, decides to put himself out there and walk to Jesus on the water. And I mean, he's doing pretty good for awhile..but look at what happens.
"Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, 'Lord Save me!' Immediately, Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. 'You of little faith,', He said, 'why are you so afraid?'" Matthew 14:29-31
All we have to do is close our eyes and take a leap of faith.
Prayers would be appreciated(: love ya'll!