All For You.

Judges 6-7 talks about a fun guy named Gideon, who was chosen by God to lead the Israelites in battle to defeat the Midianites. Some background on Gideon.
He wasn't all that special according to the world, according to his community.  He was the 'least of his family', and his clan was one of the weaker ones at the time. When God told Gideon the plans He had for defeating the Midianites, he asked God to send him a sign to show that the Lord would be with him...So he wasn't all that confident at the beginning.
So God ends up sending multiple signs to Gideon, instead of just one. So Gideon starts to get men ready for battle against the Midianites. Here's something to know about the Midianites: They were SCARYY, and they were HUUUUGE. But Gideon gets together a pretty decent sized army...
Oh what's up? God had a different idea. While Gideon and his thousands of men were camping out at a spring, "The Lord said to Gideon, 'You have too many men for me to deliver Midian into their hands. In order that Israel may not boast against me that her own strength has saved her, announce now to the people, 'Anyone who trembles with fear may turn back and leave Mount Gilead." (Judges 7:2-3)
Okay, if I were Gideon..I'd probably be a lil' bit confused. He was probably scared enough to begin with, but now God wanted to make the army SMALLER. Yeah. I would pee my pants.
Alright.
So the army dwindles down a little bit after the men who were afraid were left. But God wasn't done yet. Two more times he decreases the amount of men in the army, to where there were only THREE HUNDRED men left.  Three hundred.  In army talk, as far as I know, that really isn't all that much.

But if you keep reading, and as you probably guessed. The small army of 300 does defeat the Midianites, and get this-they didn't even lay a FINGER on the Midianites-they turned on themselves!

Gosh, why is God so cool?
In my life, it's so easy to get caught up in trying to bring myself glory-even when it has to do with my walk with the Lord. Even when I'm not trying to bring myself glory, I'm often trying to please other people opposed to pleasing the Lord.
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of GOD? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." ~Galatians 1:10

Something I've come to realize is that if I'm at school being a light for the Lord, or I'm at our school's bible study leading a lesson, or worshipping at church, or even posting on this blog..if people are looking at me saying, "wow, what Hannah is doing is so inspiring!", then I'm doing something, everything wrong. (I'm not saying people even say or think things like this about me-I have no idea). But the point is, I'm at the point now where I don't want people to look at me and see me. I want people to praise God because of what he's done in my life, or what he's done in other's lives. Because none of the good things in my life are from me-They're the Lord's. If I didn't know Jesus, I would be so lost, because..Do I really need to say it again? Probably. IM BROOOKENNN and I'm STUPPPPID.
Question:
Do you think that after the Israelites won that battle against the Midianites, they went home and patted themselves on the back? I don't think they did. I don't think they were ABLE to give themselves credit. I'm just at this place where, yeah, heck yes, I still struggle with wanting to give myself glory, but I want God to work in my life in such a crazy way that no credit can be given to me.  I want to be tested, like Gideon, where I'm standing at that spring and I realize that only the Lord can get me through the battle ahead. I want the Lord to take every good thing in my life and make it His.
Scratch that.
I want God to use every part of me, even my weaknesses! Because, he can do that you know.
But he said to me, my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9
It's time to let go, and surrender.
I'm tired of being in control.