Wow. It's been a really long time since I've posted on here. The end of November and all of December were definitely insanely busy, but now that I'm on break I feel like my only excuse for not posting would be because I'm being lazy. But the Lord has been laying on my heart to talk about something.
And that's our hearts.
"The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?" -Jeremiah 17:9
Seems kind of different from what the world tells us, doesn't it?
I mean come on guys, we read in books, hear in songs, and on almost every TV show/movie, to follow your heart. LISTEN to your heart, etc...
Now why on earth would we do that? Don't get me wrong, I love disney movies and sappy country songs as much as the next person, but how could we follow our hearts when God's word clearly says the opposite? If you've read my blog at all, you would know that I fully believe, and have stressed over and over again how broken we are as human beings. The only way that we can know what is good and what is right is by the grace of the Holy Spirit.
"The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace." -Romans 8:6
Ultimately, our hearts nature is to chase after the desires of the flesh. Yes, Jesus is sweet and fills us with HIS will and His desire, but because we can never reach perfection in this world, our heart will not ever be fully and constantly be chasing after Him every second of the day. See, for the longest time, I tried so so hard to be perfect, and to try and be focused on the Lord 24/7. While it's always good to be chasing after the Lord, my focus became too much on reaching perfection, or, trying to, instead of God's grace. I allowed myself to become unnecessarily anxious every time I did something wrong, and I wouldn't let myself enjoy the blessings the LORD had given me, because I was too busy fretting over if the Lord was pleased with my actions or not.
Well, here's the thing. Yes, we honor the Lord when we do things for Him, and sacrifice things, and submit our will to Him. But pleasing him is a whole other thing. We PLEASE the Lord just by being a child of His. And there's this really fine line, I think, when the position of our ever-changing heart is vitally important. See, we as Christian's will ALWAYS be going through seasons-where we feel close to God, or feel like we're drifting, hearing his voice, or not. (trust me, definitely going through a season right now!!) Our hearts are ever changing. But one thing isn't changing, and that's Jesus Christ, and His GRACE! Nothing we can do or not do will ever make Him love us more, and nothing we can do can certainly ever make us love Him LESS! And I feel like this is such a foreign concept to us as humans, because we don't have the capacity to love like that-Only God does! And when we do things for the Lord, we should be doing them because we LOVE Him, not because we want to try and make Him love us more, as impossible as that is... Is your heart a heart of worship, or a heart of worry? A heart of worship, or a heart of works?
Well.
That's all I got!
I'll definitely be trying to post on here more often!
